I'm trying to understand who I am. And being this age, with so many influences isn't helping. I'm starting to wonder if at any age you really know who you are. Are you sure of all these things you preach?
I'm not. I'm afraid. Afraid of so much.
It's hard for me to get and
it just seems to be getting more complicated.
As a child it's just you and family.
Then add the opposite sex...well attraction and romantic relationships.
Along with the need to be right and perfect.
And worrying about what everyone thinks.
Then it's success that takes over, while still trying to be accepted.
Which leads me to drugs and alcohol.
Then I guess Marriage and kids and what all comes with that...not sure i'm not there yet.
I've been thinking a lot about what I want and I don't know.
Somedays it's one thing and
then I change my mind.
I think most people are better without the bad me and I hide when I feel her.
I ruin and am ruined. Who wants that?
I need to work hard and find confidence and become someone else, but where to start and who will this one be?
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